Cloudy

It's cloudy here in Shenzhen. The weather is 15C with occasional drizzle. Maybe because of the weather that's why I'm feeling blue somehow. I don't feel right. I just want to stay in bed and let this black spell expires on its own.

I'd been sitting in front of my office computer with nothing to do. Not so busy this time of the year. All of my overseas customers seems away or on vacation. I don't feel right at all. I'm not even excited about what we're going to prepare for tommorow's midnight feast. I hope this bad mood simply dissapear when the new year comes.. and pray never to come back forever..

Or maybe I'm having this so-called mid-life crisis? Hmm..

I guess I have to extend more prayer of thanks to the LORD and MAMA MARY for giving me a husband and children like mine who understand and cheer me up especially in times like this. 2L3Bs are not perfect at all. Actually, we're more of a dysfunctional bunch in a hippie kind of way... but God, I'm so glad I have this wonderful family to thank for. Maraming Salamat PO..

I love you papa, your text messages really made my day.. (tears of joy is flowing...)

FACTS ABOUT MID-LIFE CRISIS
(source: By Cathy Meyer, About.com)
A midlife crisis is experienced between the ages of 40 and 60. It was first identified by the psychologist Carl Jung and is a normal part of the maturing process. Most people will experience some form of emotional transition during that time of life. A transition that might cause you to take stock in where you are in life and make some needed adjustments to the way you live your life. Most seem to come through the process smoothly without making major life changes.

For some a midlife crisis is more complicated. It can be an uncomfortable time emotionally which can lead to depression and the need for psychotherapy. Those who have a hard time with this transitional stage might experience a wide range of feelings, such as:

-Unhappiness with life and the lifestyle that may have provided them with happiness for many years.

-Boredom with people and things that may have been of interest to them before.

-Feeling a need for adventure and change.

-Questioning the choices, they have made in their lives and the validity of decisions they made years before.

-Anger at their spouse or children and blame for feeling tied down.

-Unable to make decisions about where they want to go with their life.

-A desire for a renewed and passionate, intimate relationship with spouse.

According to Wikipedia, midlife crisis is a term used in Western societies to describe a period of dramatic self-doubt that is felt by some individuals in the "middle years" of life, as a result of sensing the passing of youth and the imminence of old age. Sometimes, transitions experienced in these years, such as aging in general, menopause, the death of parents, or children leaving home, can trigger such a crisis. The result may be a desire to make significant changes in core aspects of day to day life or situation, such as in career, marriage, or romantic relationships.

Many middle aged adults experience major life events that can cause a period of psychological stress or depression. Researchers have found that midlife is often a time for reflection and reassessment, but this is not always accompanied by the psychological upheaval popularly associated with "midlife crisis".